The business of truth

There's nothing better than using Instagram to craft your perfect little life. People see what you want and not what you don't. This is me on Instagram currently:

(Buying lotion post tattoos-filtered and headshot)

(Sister's wedding shower-filtered and partially hidden on the sides)

(Playing golf-taken from above, tummy in, t & a out)

But this is the photo I didn't expect and it hit me like a train:

Yikes.

Not what I want to see. In my head when I picture myself (you do it too), I see this:

Whoa. Those look like 2 different people. This is from almost 2 years ago. I miss my hair (it's growing back) and def miss that bod, which I hated at the time. 

How did I get here? Of course, I could lie to myself about that accidental picture (bad light, no filter, taken from below) but it really just confirms what I already knew.

I'm unhealthy. I've gained 20 lbs in the last 2 years and that's not cool, peeps. I was SO unhappy at work and in life and I was just eating my way through the days, weeks and months. Exercise even fell away for me this year, which I really used to love and now I just feel uncomfortable when working out. I can FEEL the weight. 

So it's time to stop. Stop lying to myself and start being accountable for my actions. Remember that it's my responsibility to make me better, and there is no trick or magic potion. Put in the time, stop eating the junk and fix it. If not now, when? We just moved across the country! Blank slate! Now is the time. Stop the lies and let's make America great again! 😂

For real though. 185 lbs? Oh hell no.