5 lbs down!

Admittedly, not much difference in the side by side, but I lost 5 lbs this week! 

Logged every meal this week and my Apple Watch makes logging exercise a breeze. MFP is so great and I really appreciate all its functions the more I use it.

We have spent the last full week staying with my inlaws in Sioux Falls. We've definitely hit that wall. You know, the wall where they want you to go and you're gonna die if you don't have your own space back? They have been WONDERFULLY hospitable, but it's time.

We close on our new house in Micthell, SD on Monday (tomorrow!!) at 10am. I am SO excited to get in there and make some plans!!

Having brunch today with my mom who is visiting at our favorite spot,"Spezias." Already logged calories!

Happy Sunday!

Dead-On!

When you're tracking calories, it's super hard to hit right on target. So I always aim for about 5-50 under and know I did alright (still can't bring myself to see that - in MFP). 

I started doing IIFYM about 3 years ago after Owen was born and it was hard for me. I just never felt like I was hitting my macros close enough! Cause if calories weren't enough to worry about; protein, fat and carbs rounded out my diary anxiety. 

And then a funny thing happened today, MANY days after falling off the IIFYM wagon: I did it.

And I had milk, and cheese at lunch, a butter fill with breakfast and dinner dessert, but I also had grilled chicken and eggs and turkey. And it balanced. Within 3 on the macros and 20 on the calories is a WIN!!

In other news we made the kids watch Honey, I Shrunk the Kids and it was glorious.

C25K. Again.

The perk of moving up north is that, for the most part, summer is not a blazing unbearable inferno for 3 months. Of course the trade off comes in winter, but let's talk about that in February, ok?

So went I left the house after dragging my butt out of bed 8:30am, (Owen woke up at 4:50am and hung out for 30 minutes...) I was pleasantly surprised with the weather! 72 degrees, with daylight?!!! What is this sorcery?!! Oh, yeah, it's not Texas 😂.

I was planning just to walk for 45 minutes but I was spurred by the weather and decided to walk/jog. And one jogging session in, I realized I'm much more out of shape than I give myself credit for and probably ought to restart Couch to 5K. 

Man, I love this app. I was challenged but not terrorized. Enough so I almost did another run tonight! Almost.

Also used my Apple Watch run app for the first time and it worked great! Even synced with my fitness pal no problem!

And my car-loving 8 year old found this today. Important thoughts! 😊

The business of truth

There's nothing better than using Instagram to craft your perfect little life. People see what you want and not what you don't. This is me on Instagram currently:

(Buying lotion post tattoos-filtered and headshot)

(Sister's wedding shower-filtered and partially hidden on the sides)

(Playing golf-taken from above, tummy in, t & a out)

But this is the photo I didn't expect and it hit me like a train:

Yikes.

Not what I want to see. In my head when I picture myself (you do it too), I see this:

Whoa. Those look like 2 different people. This is from almost 2 years ago. I miss my hair (it's growing back) and def miss that bod, which I hated at the time. 

How did I get here? Of course, I could lie to myself about that accidental picture (bad light, no filter, taken from below) but it really just confirms what I already knew.

I'm unhealthy. I've gained 20 lbs in the last 2 years and that's not cool, peeps. I was SO unhappy at work and in life and I was just eating my way through the days, weeks and months. Exercise even fell away for me this year, which I really used to love and now I just feel uncomfortable when working out. I can FEEL the weight. 

So it's time to stop. Stop lying to myself and start being accountable for my actions. Remember that it's my responsibility to make me better, and there is no trick or magic potion. Put in the time, stop eating the junk and fix it. If not now, when? We just moved across the country! Blank slate! Now is the time. Stop the lies and let's make America great again! 😂

For real though. 185 lbs? Oh hell no.