Post Cross/Pre Summer

We were in Mexico for a wedding last weekend (Bryan and Angie) and it was amazing in so many ways. Beautiful water, fabulous beaches, booze, food, booze, friends and booze. On the grooms side, it was a group of us who have known each other between 15 - 30 years and the crew from the bride's side was just as cool. 49 people, no drama. :)

And while I enjoyed so much of it, my fun was slightly tempered by my appearance. I look fine. I know that. I'm not delusional here, I'm not trying to be 120lbs or something. But having 9 months of warning that I would be spending a week in May in a swimsuit with some of my fittest, funnest friends seemed to do nothing to spur me on to be my best self. If anything, the time window seemed to large and like I had "plenty" of time. And once crunch time hit (April) I realized I didn't have enough to be where I wanted so I just said "whatever." Heaviest I've ever been. So, radical overhaul or just deal with it...Hmmm.

I've been doing CrossFit with Tim since Feb. I just don't love it. I want to. I'm doing ok, progressing a bit. The people are nice, but it just doesn't feel like me. I was like that in volleyball in MS/HS. I was ok at it. Played A Team, good serve and great at back-row. But I was never going to start. Never going to be the best. CF feels that way. I've got at least 20lbs on every girl there and and very scaled when doing my workouts. I know it's a process and I'll get there eventually, but with our move to SoDak and my knowledge that there isn't a box there has tempered my excitement.

Going in to summer, I'd like to just be consistent. Consistently good eating, consistent workouts, consistent housework. School is BANANAS busy right now, so I'll be glad when that's done. But we need to get the house on the market and plan the move. It's a lot of balls to juggle right now.

One day, one step at a time!